We do this to ourselves every year. There's something about starting a new year when we tell ourselves we are going to learn a new thing.
For me I:
...want to paint daily.
...want to draw more.
...want to read more.
...want to exercise more.
...want to eat more healthily.
...want to write and share my thoughts on my blog.
...want to continue levelling up my design skills.
...want to start a side project which means I can code more.
But we are in the middle of a pandemic.
It's hard going being stuck at home, living and working in a small space, not going out. It's hard on one's mental health.
If you want to just sit and watch Netflix and eat a whole bar of chocolate that's OK. Just because you take a break from things, that's OK.
You can always pause, and try your good intentions another day, when you are more motivated.
When I don't feel like doing anything, sometimes I just write my thoughts and ideas, good and bad in a journal ready for another day. It stops me dwelling on them, and gives me a place to pick them up again from.
Stop giving yourself a hard time. Sometimes it's ok just to exist.